I'm worried about not being accepted by my dead family if I come back to life. It's not natural to us. And it feels wrong to shake the hand of a devil I can't see, someone who'd hold my soul hostage unless I do something for him.
[He loosens his hold so she can turn, staring at Sypha with both love and exhaustion (the closest thing he really has to fear these days)]
He doesn't feel right. And if I feel that way, my family definitely would. I'm already facing permanent estrangement by making friends with Dracula. If I come back to life, it'll be spitting in the face of every ancestor who had the choice and instead chose to die.
[She is angry, but it's controlled, a simmer behind her eyes that she's keeping well back. Her hand is gentle, curving around the back of his neck.]
If you'd be damned or cut out for coming back to life, after giving yourself to save the world, Trevor, then it isn't the Admiral holding you hostage, is it?
[Sypha is good; she knows he won't jerk away with her hand on his neck, but he doesn't look happy about it]
It would be like being a vampire. It isn't, not exactly, but it would be seen that way. Saving the world was just a bonus: dead is dead.
And it's not only me. You and our kid would be just as rejected. Any descendants we have couldn't be reasonably called Belmonts if their grandfather was a massive fucking hypocrite.
And there are certain weapons and wards that might not work if there are no longer 'legitimate' descendants.
You don't know how your family would stand on this, this is conjecture. Unless you haven't told me that you found the diary of an outcast great uncle who went through this.
I know that it's unprecedented, and there's probably a good reason for it. And that I'm not willing to risk our family's eternal damnation and estrangement on me getting to spend a few more years with you and Simon.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
I was going to shout at someone, if I said anything, and I don't want to do that.
no subject
I said something. Privately.
no subject
Please don't be rude to her.
no subject
I won't be. She's sick in the head. Maybe the gut, too.
I saw a little of that kind of sickness. Not a lot, but enough.
Either that or she's lying for attention, which is a different sickness altogether.
no subject
It won't bother me tomorrow. I just need a little time.
no subject
Want me to stay, or do you want to be alone?
no subject
I want you to stay. But I also want to shout at you, so you should make your own choice.
no subject
Shout away.
no subject
Don't laugh at me, Trevor Belmont.
no subject
Sorry.
no subject
I can raise that boy without you. But I will not forgive you if I have to.
no subject
I know.
[Softer; giving voice to his deepest fears]
I'm worried about not being accepted by my dead family if I come back to life. It's not natural to us. And it feels wrong to shake the hand of a devil I can't see, someone who'd hold my soul hostage unless I do something for him.
I'd be damned.
no subject
Trevor. Do you think I would make a deal with a devil? Even for you?
no subject
He doesn't feel right. And if I feel that way, my family definitely would. I'm already facing permanent estrangement by making friends with Dracula. If I come back to life, it'll be spitting in the face of every ancestor who had the choice and instead chose to die.
no subject
If you'd be damned or cut out for coming back to life, after giving yourself to save the world, Trevor, then it isn't the Admiral holding you hostage, is it?
no subject
It would be like being a vampire. It isn't, not exactly, but it would be seen that way. Saving the world was just a bonus: dead is dead.
And it's not only me. You and our kid would be just as rejected. Any descendants we have couldn't be reasonably called Belmonts if their grandfather was a massive fucking hypocrite.
And there are certain weapons and wards that might not work if there are no longer 'legitimate' descendants.
no subject
no subject
no subject
Then we'll find out.
no subject
Yeah? How? You going to phone up some long-dead relatives?
no subject
I'll drag one of them here, if I have to.
no subject
no subject
no subject
no subject
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)